with you I-X

I

adunni...

i broke my heart over the sun of december
eclipsed by the moon of emptiness...

it was without you...

i come with wounded dreams
i writhe from pains singeing my blood...

will you again stitch me
from the rays of your sun
and needle me with love?

that i may live again
my dreams...

my heart with you.

II

i have stirred the web of my dreams
it is nothing without you...

like the cloudy bowels of harmattan
pregnant with emptiness from emptiness
i nurture nights and novels of loneliness...

but adunni...

before december fades like a frigid ember
will you wake again with my dawn
and save my dusks from loneliness?

that i may spider webs of fruitful dreams
and dream dreams with you...

III

adunni...

i saw the songs of dry leaves and ashes
the red rhythms of fire over the tongues of harmattan
and i remember my fire...my dryness...

without you...

i saw the barrenness of trees pregnant with dust
the sadness of fallen leaves...loss and death
and i remember my barrenness without you...

will you bless me with the rains of love?
that my fire may die and bring bloom for my sterility...

and be green again with you.

IV

you know adunni...

i sat close to the musing of the moon
and played the gospel of my dreaming drums
without you...

she hissed and spewed anger in shooting stars
and my rhythms faded in trembling testaments...

do i have a gospel without your psalmody?

but would you again like a david to my soul
string the harp of psalms over my holed-heart?

that i may pour smiles into the mouth of the moon
rhythms with psalms...a gospel with you...

V
shall i not tell you, adunni?
i have become a drum without rhythms
and my heart plays hide and seek with breath...

how can i beat without you?

the raven came with bad news
that my one penny of feelings is a glowing darkness
that you teared tears bearing the memories of my beasts
the anger that ruined the root of our fine love...

but would you again bury the beasts of memories
and raise me a saint with beauty...

that i may find melody for drums...breath with you...

VI

adunni...

i feel like the muted expressions of the sun
beneath the frowned clouds of harmattan
i am not smiling without you...

i have engraved on the pages of my teeth
the writings of bitterness of my twisted tongue
for how can i walk the miles without your smiles?
my teeth are white-washed sepulchers of dead smiles...

would you again be my genesis of smiles?
that my teeth may write a new testament for revelation...

and smiles with you.

VII

adunni...

i have tattooed the spine of the night
with the cloudiness of my frozen heart
i am a torn thorny twig of thoughts
without you...

i have lent my soul to the wind
and cupped the psalms of clouds into hugging palms
to weep my ruins into your heart
i have no tears again save the broken teeth of harmattan...

would you again bloom roses for my thorns?
that i may find beauty with you...

VIII

my heart is yet traded its breath to the neck bone
and i feel a fear on the palate of my tongue
without you...

i fear my breath shall soon jump out of my mouth
for incompleteness has laid restlessness into my pulses...

but adunni....

would you again on the skin of the season
squeeze the elixir of love into my perforated heart?
your breath into my breath
your life into my life...

that i may find peace for my restless pulses...

IX

adunni...

shall i not strip it quickly?
shall i not unclothe the burning beneath my burning?
how without i am without you...

i regret the day i buried the tonic sofa of our love
into the crooked clefs of anger and manly hubris
i regret the bitter bruises on the laps of the evening
where i once sang you beautiful serenades...

i can no more touch the sky...

but would your love consider again the misery of my man
that i may touch the sky again with you....

X

today is the last page of my scrolls
for your forgiveness
for your with you to my without you...

in my lost to lost i lost you
and my fate is pregnant with a prodigal sadness...

i have tried and failed my teeth for brightness
over the soon birth of the new moon
and my thoughts have slipped into the arms of dark corners...

but adunni...

would you return again with love tonight?
that i may watch the new moon with you...